New distractions, new love.

and like what J.Low said, "& great financial loss".

But "it's inevitable."

P.s        - Jojo bestie asked if I could help her do photoshoot. Well, why not.

P.p.s     - You still made me tremble..and you made me miss you terribly much.
P.p.s     - Save up as much as possible for the things I want to buy!

DSLR love; abstracts.

Well, didn't do much today, went to the temple with my grandma, grandaunts and my mum to pray today. After that, headed off to Golden Mile shopping centre for steamboat and chicken rice. Ohh man, how I missed the chicken rice there. It's so good!

After dinner, mum dropped me off at Kallang MRT and down I went, to Dhoby Ghaut to meet one of my long time no see buddy, L. We met up for some photography around Orchard. As usual, the NOOB me thought that there was something wrong with the lens but actually was because the viewfinder focus was ADJUSTED. Well, after all was set, we took some photos and here are some of the end products of the night.

self-explanatory, it's a sample shot.

Abstract shot taken by L; teaching me how to do such shots

Orchard Central when it's Golden.

We kept having errors with the lens while taking this shot, so this was a rare shot..

As mentioned, we kept having lens issue, so this was one of the test shots after cleaning..

So is this one...

After we were done snapping away, we headed to Heaven's Loft (Ben and Jerry's) to have some dessert. Partially cos it was me who had cravings for ice cream. While waiting after placing our orders..

I like this messed up feeling; probably cos it describes L and my feelings best..

After taking this photo, L and myself were looking at this and I went like "Hey, maybe this could be a photograph to warn people about drink-driving."

And the last photo of it all, when my dessert arrived..

For more of the photos, check them out on my facebook photos under the Abstract album. Well, nothing much to type now, so shall end here..

P.s       - I loved the breeze and the sunset at Riverside, Clark Quay.

P.p.s    - I trembled for the second time in a row when you appeared.

P.p.p.s - Happy Birthday to Ryan and Shanon!

who made me happy today?

Caught up with S for shopping at Plaza Singapura today. She went to get her stuffs for her sketch book and she bought a soft toy AGAIN (it's called Komo-kun)

After that swung by Lina's place and chilled..yakked and yakked, then fed baby Tiffany! Haven't fed a baby in a long long while already, skills rusted. but it was fun, and she looked so adorable when she was drinking her milk!

After feeding baby Tiffany, Lina's mum took over and brought her to sleep, and we continued our yakking. Suddenly we grew so bored that we started flaming each other on FB!~ too bad my phone ran out on battery on me, otherwise it'd been a big big funny FB flaming conversation. LOL!

S and myself left shortly after as Lina and Jackie needed to rest. Saw Shanon home and got home myself, did a little Friends Exposed and now typing this entry.

Well, ending it here now, but before that, Who made me happy today? Thanks S, and baby Tiffany, and Lina + Jackie. =)

P.s       - I hope one day you will tell me blue rose, so I know that it means I've got hope.
P.p.s    - I so wanted to put your name in plenty of Friends Exposed questions, but I don't have the courage..
P.p.p.s - Do you know that I am so worried about you? ily, imy, C.

To You

"Life isn't a fairytale, and I do not have a Harry Potter magic wand to work wonders to create that Disney's happily-ever-after ending. But what I do know is if time could go back, I'll fall for you over and over again, keep on trying and trying, in hopes that you will eventually like me back for just once."

my confessions.

There has been so much happening these few days. Everyday I wake up, having my mind fighting my heart, suppressing that feelings I have for you. I thought by breaking all contacts with you, I could spare myself the agony of having to decide whether its my heart to rule, or my mind to rule.

But that wasn't true, because for the 3600seconds each day, you are constantly on my mind. I know love can't be forced. I don't know how much of feelings you have for me, but what I do know is if even that feelings you have for me is 1%, 0.1% or maybe even 0.01%, so long as you are willing to try, i will do anything to the best of my ability to nurture that feeling.

This remaining time I have left in Singapore, before i further my studies, I want you to feel loved, make you the happiest girl in this world, make you feel like the queen. I keep saying I can't be selfish, because of my impending trip overseas, but I really wished I could, because that's how badly I want you to be in playing a role in my future.

All those things I've done for you, It'd be a lie that I don't have a motive. Every small thing I did for you, I hoped it might have moved you and perhaps it would make you have a slight change of heart towards me. But the main reason is because I just want you to be happy.

These words, are my heartfelt words. Maybe I've tried too hard.

but before I end off this post,
I love you, Cheryl.