my confessions.

There has been so much happening these few days. Everyday I wake up, having my mind fighting my heart, suppressing that feelings I have for you. I thought by breaking all contacts with you, I could spare myself the agony of having to decide whether its my heart to rule, or my mind to rule.

But that wasn't true, because for the 3600seconds each day, you are constantly on my mind. I know love can't be forced. I don't know how much of feelings you have for me, but what I do know is if even that feelings you have for me is 1%, 0.1% or maybe even 0.01%, so long as you are willing to try, i will do anything to the best of my ability to nurture that feeling.

This remaining time I have left in Singapore, before i further my studies, I want you to feel loved, make you the happiest girl in this world, make you feel like the queen. I keep saying I can't be selfish, because of my impending trip overseas, but I really wished I could, because that's how badly I want you to be in playing a role in my future.

All those things I've done for you, It'd be a lie that I don't have a motive. Every small thing I did for you, I hoped it might have moved you and perhaps it would make you have a slight change of heart towards me. But the main reason is because I just want you to be happy.

These words, are my heartfelt words. Maybe I've tried too hard.

but before I end off this post,
I love you, Cheryl.