how different are we, when you and I are just the same?

I haven't been really really happy these few days..smile's fading, cheerfulness' fading..now i am just 皮笑， 肉不笑.. sometimes, i don't know. sometimes, i hope you'd open up and let me in, give it a try, letting me show you how deep my feelings are for you, believe in me and not write me off so quickly with reasons..so many sometimes....

your decision for someone else, haven't I been doing the same for you?

P.s    - i hate myself.
P.p.s - i need to go back to my reclusive self, practise what my name says, keeping emotions in the heart.